... and in its time it is so beautiful.
Can’t miss the past…
Can’t wait for the future…
It is about living for the now…
Not the past, and not the future…
That can leave you heart sick.
It is all about the now…
Do not miss your chance, do life right.
We are not guaranteed tomorrow.
Do you ever think about people who come and people who have gone in and out of your life? I think every person has experienced people who have completely changed their lives and thought they’d be forever in each others lives, but then things change and people move on. Whether it was out of hard times or just happened through a settle growing apart process. I think about it every once in a while, the people who poured so much in my life and the people I have poured into, and even though I don’t talk to most of them or even know where they are at I appreciate them so much. Weather it was one of those things we thought would last forever or not. I believe every single person that has came into my life was divine and from God. By taking the opportunity of getting to know and learn about the people around me in life during the seasons I have been in I have learned that I find out a lot about myself. At the same time as getting to know those new people… It is so interesting to meet people that you wouldn’t usually, you really learn what you don’t like, or fall in love with things you never thought you would. I love all the people who have changed my perspective on myself and my life and do not even know, I appreciate them more then ever. I even appreciate the ones who let me down and have had not so great times with. They taught me patience and how to love even when I did not want to. How to forgive even when I did not want to, and let me see my real character and realize things that I knew that needed to change in my attitude. I can truly say I love everyone that has came into my life, and sadly who have gone. Everyone was for a reason good or bad. I sometimes wish I could go back and be with people like the old days, but it isn’t about the past, it is about today and the people in my life now. The best is yet to come 
Something I love, and I will always love…
MAKE-UP!
Seriously, there is something about doing a persons make-up.
There blank face is like a canvas.
The brushes are like the magic wands to create the art work.
And the make up is the paint that makes the masterpiece.
make-up… is an art.
Out with the old in with the new! The new year has finally arrived in all of its glory. 2009… this year, for me, is definitely a year of change. It really will be different then all the rest. This is the year I will get a job, get my license (finally), and graduate from high school. I will start to make decisions I never had to before. I am so used to having the next grade to graduate to and just making goals for myself in that year. It is so much more then that now. I do not have a next grade of high school to be looking forward to, or not looking forward to, and just making those short term goals that are important to accomplish.
This year I choose what I do after high school, what will count the most, listening to God and following him. This is where life really begins. What am I really suppose to do when I am actually done with my 12 years of education. I do not want to waste any time doing things I should not do. I do not worry about it, where I will go, or won’t go, I know it will all work out for itself. It is in God’s hands not me, thank goodness. I do not want to grow up too fast either, this is my last year of high school, I do not want to miss anything because I am thinking about the future, right now in this moment is what counts the most.
It is important to remember the past but not hold on, cherish every moment in the moment, and embrace all the new things that are in store. Every new year is an opportunity to love people more, discover who I am (likes and dislikes), learn something new everyday, choose to be happy in everything, get closer to family, change someone’s life, and fall more and more in love with Jesus. I will do all of those things. This year I will learn to be more independent and depend on God alone.
I am going to be more thoughtful in what things I tell people. I will surround myself with those people I can talk to about anything, we can have a blast doing nothing, and people who love me enough that they can tell me when I need to change things when needed.
In 2009 i am going to write more, laugh more, sing more, pray more, read more, and listen more. Talking is my strength but it is also my weakness. I am going to master the art of talking in its most positive form. I am more excited then you know to see what this year will look like, not just for me but for every person in my life. I wonder what new people will be brought into my life, what new talents that will be unlocked inside of me, what new talents I can help unlock in others, and so much more. I am going to dream big this year, I am going to change the world this year
I do not sleep very much… I do not know why, but I don’t. In fact every since babyhood I have had this problem… lately it has been the worst! What is a person to do in the middle of the night. Most the time I want to leave the house and go on a nice long walk, but one of the joys of being a girl is not being aloud to go out and walk alone in the late night hours…. it happens.
So what do I do instead? Well, I get weird urges to clean and organize my entire room. I will seriously go through everything… I wish I got those weird cleaning urges during the day! It is strange, when I don’t feel like cleaning my room I will read, and read a lot… here is the weird thing, I usually don’t like to read, but I focus best in the a.m. hours and really I do enjoy reading , random much…
When reading doesn’t seem to satisfy my not being able to sleep I will get out the thing I write in most, the pink composition note book. I swear I write my life in that thing, if you ever want to hear the most random things of Ali get a hold of that… good luck though that would not ever happen . Or one of my personal favorite things to do is to get out my coloring books (yes I have coloring books, and crayons don’t be jealous) and go to town in those! I rock at coloring. One time someone made a joke about me and coloring books… here it is “Why hasn’t Ali ever finished a book… Because she runs out of color crayons.” probably one of the funniest things I have heard.
Well there isn’t much more to say about me not sleeping, I don’t like taking medicine to sleep so I guess I am stuck in this sleeplessness. I don’t mind though, it is a good time to be with me, myself, and I, to think back on my days and count my blessings. I get my best thinking done in the wee hours of the night, and my best prayers in as well, I love it.. Just remember the next time you are wide awake during the night I probably am also, and MAYBE I am praying or thinking about you!
Sincerely,
your true Sleepless in Seattle.
pa⋅tience [pey-shuhns]
an ability or willingness to suppress restlessness or annoyance when confronted with delay.
Patience is truely an art form to be mastered. Obviously the culture we live in is all about I want it fast and I want it now, whatever it might be. But why is that? Why do people want things instantly? Why do people want to know everything now rather then later? Don’t get me wrong I am a person who likes to know everything. However, I am recently discovering that I do not want to know everything, not how I use to anyway.
What is the point in that? What is life without that adventurous waiting process? Having things come in the perfect time usually means that certain things will take more time. And I am perfectly okay with that. The testing of my faith produces patience, in waiting periods I know I learn and grow the most , why wouldn’t you want that waiting time to prepare yourself for the most perfect timing for the thing you want most, or think you want.
That is another thing, you could think you want something and think the timing is right but if it is not then that just sets you back, and you have to wait even longer.Even if having patience seems like a hassle or inconvenience it could be the very thing that protects you when you need it most, no matter how big or small the thing you are waiting for is. All I know is that I never want the right thing at the wrong time. I want the right thing at the perfect time, God’s perfect time. Even if it is hard and does not make sense, or brings heart ache and tears. I know that everything is beautiful in its time.
